Day 8: I wanted to cheat. Or quit. But I just ate foods that are on plan, just lots of them. I did manage to get more veggies and fruit! But also nuts and a Lara bar (only half). Actually now that I write this it doesn't sound that bad. I ate 1/2+c of macadamia nuts, cucumbers and blueberries. Why am I so hard on myself??? Besides snacking when I "shouldn't" I am doing fricken awesome! Lighten up for gods sake!!!

Day 7: a week!! A week without cheating or slipping! Super proud of that. Unfortunately I did break 1 rule. I got on the scale. All the way up to the point that I looked at the number I kept telling myself not to do it. And I should have listened. I lost 3 lbs but I was hoping for more. All day long I contimplated quitting or switching wl programs... "on weight watchers I'm not as restricted"... "maybe I should try Paleo, I heard you can drink wine". I forgot that I'm doing this to let go of my food obsessions and living by what the scale says. I need to shut up and let the program do its thing for 30 days! Listen to your body! Already I have clear thought and self confidence that I can do this (well mare than before anyway). No more scales! Work on healthy living! Do it!

Day 6 (and 5): let me get this out first so I don't forget! Tonight I wasn't hungry at all but I thought "desert"! I made the banana/coconut milk/almond butter smoothie. It was like having a bowl of ice cream... which was yummy, but not particularly on plan. Also... I WASNT HUNGRY!!  So after eating it I feel stuffed and bloated and guilty for giving into the craving that I am trying to squash! Note to self... don't do that again!
Ok, so onto day 5&6. Aka the weekend.
Day 5 was great, on plan, had B&D over for pulled pork and made a Whole30 meal that everyone enjoyed. They drank and we didn't and it wasn't that hard! I worked my ass off cleaning and cooking but stayed on plan. Yay me! On a Saturday even. The only time I thought about faltering was when I poured a glass of Chardonnay for Brenda.
Day 6 was a busy day away from the house. Good thing I brought almonds, apple as and a Lara bar because we were one thru lunch. We stopped at Jack in the Box and I sipped an unsweetened iced tea while Justin ate a cheese burger and fries. That was kinda hard too but I imagined how I would feel after I ate that and my answer was bloated, crappy and guilty. I discovered Starbucks unsweetened iced tea with coconut milk. Yummy!
I'm also struggling with wanting to weigh myself. I need to focus on my non scale victories.
Goal for this upcoming week: 3 meals a day, no leagal "junk food" snacks and deserts!

Day 4: it's going great! I expected to way up and want to "kill all things" but I haven't felt like that at all! I HAVE been home alone, the suns out, and I do what I want (coffee in the hot tub, you tube vids) and I'm hoping to feel this 'up' when Justin gets home and asks for favors...
I'm sitting here eating a smoothie that is just fab! 2 frozen bananas, 2 T almond butter and 3/4-1c coconut milk(Pinterest). It's thick like soft serve ice cream. I'm going to use this for a desert on special occasions! I wonder if I can freeze batches for a grab and go???? Note to self... try it!
So in the hot tub I was trying to "meditate" and as I was focusing on how I am doing good and can certainly keep this up, I came to the happy hour issue. I think I discovered that I can focus on the conversations and use club soda to keep my hands and mouth busy. I like being clear headed and feeling good in the morning. If I get social anxiety I need to remember that people like to my all to me... and they are drinking they won't notice that I'm being awkward. Open up and be myself, people like me!
Fri night tonight. Fight the cravings and the end of week celebrations with food and alcohol!

Day 3:  
 Today I work.  I woke up cranky and every little thing pissed me off. The plug wouldn't twist right.  Pissed.  Hungry.  Really pissed.  had to cook an egg. pissed.  Luckily I had left over meatballs to pack for lunch.  I sliced some cucumbers and got some ranch dressing, pretty easy.  I;m at work now and altho hungry, I'm feeling ok.  I feel a headache coming on.  Water.  Just started drinking it.  My goal is to finish it before the ice melts so I can get more.  I know from the book, today will be cranky and tired.  I plan on heading home early, putting buffalo chicken in the crock pot and taking a nap.  Take all the naps you want Karen!  They give your body time to heal, your brain time to settle, and keeps you from eating.  Nappy time wont last forever.  In a week or 2 you wont even think of napping so don't feel guilty about it now.  Do what it takes to keep you going and staying on plan!
 2pm:  Oh god.  I'm soooo tired!  I wnt to go home to bed but I also want to grocery shop so I don't have to go out tomorrow.  I'm also cranky as hell. Grrr.  Going to make some green tea.  I'll see if that helps.
I made it! The tea helped, then I powered thru and by the time I got home and relaxed I felt much better. Headache is gone and I'm not so cranky and tired. AND I did perfect today!! Phew another day done. Hope tomorrow is awesome!
PS I had club soda with citrus slices, it was nice and kept my hands busy!

Day 2:  
Lets see.  I woke up super happy that my breakfast was super easy to put together, although I ate late because I tool my Garcinia camobsia (sp?) late and was waiting the hour.  Then the ACV... don't do that in the future.  Take it as soon as you get up.  Maybe even before you get up.  Give it time to work so you can eat breakfast at a normal breakfast time!!!
But anyway... :) Today started out good.  I knitter all day and watched dog training videos.  It kept my brain busy and focused away from food.  Lunch was left overs so that was nice and easy too.  I'm finding that it is essencial to have ready to go meals so I don't have to make choices.  Given a choice, I usually pick the wrong one... it makes me think too much then I think of what I WANT to eat... not what I should eat to stay on plan.
Dinner was soup, not really hard but I was tired and did not feel like cooking.  It was really goo tho!!  Creamy taco soup from pintrest.
I'm finding that I use a lot of coconut milk and avocados.  Yes they are considered fats, but they are on plan.  They are making my meals satisfying so I am not limiting them yet.  If in the future I feel like I can slow down, I will try then.  For now make it easy!
By bedtime... I was HOT, CRANKY, headachey, itchy.  I wanted to lay in bed and not intereact with anyone.  According to Whole30 timeline, these are to be accepted.  I'm on schedule to be detoxed and feeling better than ever.  It's really nice to be able to read that what I am experiencing is normal and part of the process.

Day 1:  I remember being strong and excited! I can do this!  But of course day 1 means getting my kitchen set up.  I cleaned out the fridge, gave Justin his own pantry that I told myself is OFF limits.  Then the cooking. Gawk.  At first it was fun.  I made breakfast for 4 days... home made mayo so that I could make ranch dressing for my lunch.  That's where it lost me.  I'm tired of chopping and cooking and cleaning, repeat.  No matter, on I must go.  Lunch was of course a salad, more chopping, more cleaning... cooking bacon... then dinner.  Meatballs first (chop mix shape cook) then the sauce and cauliflower rice. ugg.  I didn't even feel like eating by then.  But I did and it was awesome.  I do get to eat a lot of yummy food and there are tons of recipes out there. I love that there is no measuring or restricting.  No counting calories or fat.  Just eat the approved foods.  I had trouble falling to sleep, partly because I had to pee every 20-30 mins. I must make a better effort to drink water earlier.  Day 1 done. YAY!
* The Coconut Curry chicken meatballs (pintrest) were very good.  Well the sauce is amazing, the meatballs ok.  Maybe needed salt?  Try beef?  Mostly the sauce (easy) and the cauliflower rice was what floated my boat, as well as the green beans.  For a meat free meal, try making the sauce over roasted veggies.  Brussel sprouts would be amazing, as would plain cauliflower.